Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Mega frustration towards my boss.

I've no personal grudge or anything against him, but I have a very reasonable and valid reason to hate him. If this problem doesn't exist, then I agree that the working experience is indeed very enjoyable.

"Tammy, I have 7 years of retail experience. I know much more than you do, OK?"

"Oh yeah? If you have 7 muthafucking years of experience, you'd know that it's wrong to delay staffs' pay. Not only that, you don't give the full pay too!"


Of course I didn't say that. But I know that it will totally stump him, leaving him freaking speechless.

Aiya.. Just tolerate loh. I can't really say out all here but I reallllllly need to rant after the whole thing is over. If I ever expose him right, he'll be dead pig meat man.

The frustration is becoming so horribly strong that I feel like burning his store now. And I mean every word I said, period.

♥ing J @13:33

Saturday, November 07, 2009

A MAY DAY IN NOVEMBER


Just got home from XHS. Goddamn tired. (Please don't use the word 'shag', do you actually know what it MEANS? LOL) I'll post the photos another day..


Alright. It'll be a lie to say that I'm not disappointed... But it wasn't that bad I suppose. At least I got to feast my eyes on MayDay :)

Thanks to Wendy for givin' me an extra ticket so I asked Fiona along :P It's my first time going to such events with a ITE friend. LOL. And she was very spontaneous. Hahaha.



Singapore Hits Awards is not as prestigious as those Tw award events. It is POORLY organized and badly judged. I wonder what are the judges' brains man. I've posted the same thing as last year's loh. It's my 3rd time attending it, 3 years consecutively. And all 3 years, Sg hits awards has never impressed me. (K I sound so act)

They give awards to EVERY SINGER who came. Like what da fuck. They showed old clips of the previous years' and it was good. Huge media attention. Even bigshots like Jacky Cheung came. Now? Ha. The last time Jay came was 2003. I feel that Mayday respects and gives face to Sg hence they came.

They like to award those newcomers, to make them feel that Woah I got my first award in Sg I'll treat Sg like my 2nd home etc. If it weren't for Mayday, attending this event wouldn't be a choice at all.

Mayday performed Tian Shi, Zui Zhong Yao De Xiao Shi and Jue Jiang. Love all 3 of course and I sang along <3 They did look goddamn worn out and tired. Please rest more :( Monster just smsed me that they're on the plane now.. HAHA but they really are. Take care please...

Jaybebi won 2 awards. Proud of my baby but it's not something unusual yea?! Hehe. <3 Mayday won a lot. Not surprising too. :)


"ZHOU YUE TIAN! WU JIE LUN!" - When the both of them are nominated in the same category. Pwns.


Tanya Chua = TOILET BREAK TIME!

I'm mean. Her voice is not bad but her songs are boring like hell. Seemed like other people thought that way too, since there was a long queue at the toilet. HAHA


It feels different without HF and co. I miss you girls a lot =( Good luck for your exams! ~<3

Sigh sigh sigh. I love Mayday so much. Without them, I wouldn't know such yummy fried rice exists at Xin Hai Shan...

I love their music.

I LOVE WU YUE TIAN LAH

Labels: bebii

♥ing J @02:47

Friday, November 06, 2009

A few more hours before I can see Mayday! And S.H.E! The others are pretty unimportant.

Mayday~ Mayday~ Mayday~

Wonder what song are they gonna perform? My guess would be D.N.A.. Or Fang Si? Hmmm gonna brace myself for stares (HAHA)

I was planning to dye my hair before they come actually, cause the horrible black roots are showing. But a friend said that this colour will definitely stand out so I kept it just for MONSTER!!

"It'll forever be just a dream if you don't pursue it"

♥ing J @14:22

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Dissolve


It's 3am plus and sleeping is like the most impossible thing to do at the moment. I've tossed and turned for countless of times since 1am.. I've listened to numerous loops of Jay's cd.


I think I desperately need to talk to someone.


Shit la no mood to work tomorrow..

:(

♥ing J @03:15

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Happy Birthday Fiona/Hiona :)


BE HAPPY! ENJOY THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY~




50 DAYS TILL ZHOU JIE LUN<3'S ARRIVAL.

I really need to rebond and change my hair colour before he comes. And a hair treatment too. So crazily important, hair is. Followed by nails and maybe make up..

I realized that I can't go out without styled hair and naked nails. Lol

That's probably the reason why my hair and nails are seriously damaged. My nails have been covered with lacquer continuously for about 10 whole months straight. Haiii

I have zilch idea what to wear when Jay comes. Obviously that's not of any importance to him, but it means a great deal to myself. Please approach me and offer me a job as a sweeper in JVR! Loooooooooooooooooooool

♥ing J @00:58

Monday, November 02, 2009

Purple.


Z' Kulture huat ar~ LOL




Sometimes I wonder if I never made the effort to maintain. Would everything just fade into the endless realm of darkness?


I'm so giddy and tired in the cab. A rest is desperately needed...

But again, because of my hair.

I can't lie down and rest. It'll flatten and mess up the style. It's not the first time that this is happening already. I really feel so tired. But... it's worth it =) Hee

♥ing J @01:18

Sunday, November 01, 2009

♥ing J @02:38

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Was an extremely good day at work ;)



Before our midnight movie. Been so long since I hung out till so late.


Bought my dress for Sg Hits Awards already!!!!!! Hope Monster likes it =) LOL and I hope the dress is not cursed like the previous one's

I WANT A NEW BEBICHHICHI.. DAMN LONG SINCE I GOT A NEW ONE. THE BEBIS ARE BORED WITH EACH OTHER AND THEY NEED NEW SIBLINGSS

♥ing J @00:38

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Thank you bebi wu for telling me this.



A new female singer's song, together with Jaybebi

I think he should've sang more parts though. But this girl's voice is pleasant and good. Urg another chiobu with jay lmao

When he said "da jia hao wo shi zhou jie lun" he sounds so freaking cute and happy. Yay woohoo.. I love his voice. He doesn't have exactly the best of vocals like Leehom, but his voice just carries something special. I can't identify what it is. But it's just a unique something that makes people wanna listen more and more..

And I love it when he sings in a strained way o.o


Going to work now.. Gonna be a busy day seeing that it's saturday. Your voice is all that I wanna listen to now.

It'd be perfect if Jay's event is held at Iluma. Coz it's so freaking cold, no fan will sweat man.


zhou jie lun, it's more than words... really

you're awesome T~T

♥ing J @09:40

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Dreams

They transport us to another world without an air ticket.. You can be anyone, anywhere and with anybody in your dreams.

I know it's gonna sound fake and all.. But I dreamt of Bubu just now. Bubu = Arron Yan Ya Lun from FEI LUN HAI

I used to craze over him and it has quietened down to pure adoration and... a bit of gone? >< But deep down in my jay-mayday crazed heart, I know that there's still FLH somewhere.

That dream was fucking wonderfully amazing. We were schoolmates and in school (the school is the building in ToGetHer. Lmao) with my RETAIL classmates too. Hahahaha? And after awhile, both of us left the group and went to take a stroll.

Suddenly he turned to me and said quietly, "Ni yuan yi zuo wo de nv peng you ma?" I remember nodding my head in the dream and hugging him tightly after agreeing. It was like in a drama :')


JAY! THIS IS JUST A DREAM

Ok carry on.. It's weird, I knew I liked him a lot in my dream but I also knew that it won't last. That's a bad feeling to have, when you just got into a relationship (even if it's in a dream). We later went to some places and surfed the net together..

I'm lazy to elaborate the details but I woke up feeling really good <3 And I went to flip my FLH photobook just now. I miss them! LOL.....

Sigh. Dreams are so beautifully arranged and it can never happen in reality.

To Bebiwu:

A thousands of sorrys to you bebi, for procrastinating for so long >< Congratulations to myself for kicking away that procrastination yea? Woohoo. Hope you'll receive it by this weekend.

♥ing J @14:47

My colleague :D


She likes Jay's Feng and Shan Hu Hai.

A few days ago we sang Shan Hu Hai in the store, using markers as the 'microphone'. Lmao. (We sing Shan Hu Hai everyday actuallie)


Strawberries on my feet


I want to watch movies... Any horror flicks. But no one wants to watch it with me.



Thanks HF!! Woooooohoooooooo



I felt an indignant bubble swelling up inside me though. So he bared for Taiwan fans. What about SINGAPORE??!?!?!

I remembered there were fans who asked him to tuo too! RAWR! Sian can only hyperventilate from PICTURES. Lmao, so white and tender like a tofu.

Guai Shou~! :D See you on Nov 6. Woots.

♥ing J @00:14

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Time flies. It's the start of the fourth week already :)


My 'vampire' outfit like what my colleagues say. Haha.


My industrial piercing, still tragically painful even after 4 months. It's the most painful one I've got.. The blood comes monthly now! Gosh


Blue Coral doesn't understand why does his owner adore self-mutilation. Neither can her parents.

62 days before Chou Chou's grand arrival to Sg..

I know he hasn't even come, but I really dread the day he leaves


17 Oct - Happy B'day to Jeremy & Jerome and Gillian~

♥ing J @00:19

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Basking in happiness


MD is coming for SHA. I really didn't expect that they would....I'm definitely going ^o^ As I read the SMS I felt a surge of pure, unadulterated joy. 2009 is looking really good so far...

I miss XHS food. See you girls soon! :)

♥ing J @22:46

Monday, October 12, 2009

Still dumbstruck and overwhelmed by the fact that he's coming.

No cancellations or delays please.


It's occupying my entire mind man...

I kept thinking of what should I wear, what should I cheer and should I go to the airport???? (OF COURSE YES LAR)


WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

wo deng ni lai~

♥ing J @00:07

Thursday, October 08, 2009

Feelings

Writing a recount of how I felt today... It's unexplainable and unfathomable, but I shall fully utilize my limited amount of vocabulary.

Even if I contract cancer or fail my attachment, I'd still be the happiest person alive in this world.

Because......


My bebi Jay is coming to Singapore :))))

When I first got hold of the news, I didn't know how to react.. My mouth gaped open. My lower lip quivered. I trembled and shivered. I surreptitiously pinched my cheek to see if I was dreaming. Dramatic, but yes.. I couldn't believe it.

I felt tears brimming and I couldn't help sobbing in the store. I almost hated him for not coming to Sg for so long.. 'bout 2 years? A huge wave of longing swept over me and I know that I miss him very much!

What would you do if the person you love is away from you for so long?

My hand that was clutching my phone relaxed. A smile slowly flickered across my face and I began to regain my composure.. It dawned upon me that Lun Lun is really coming. My heart leaped by a few million storeys and I was over the moon!

Now, I've seen Lun Lun a lot of times before. But each time I do, I.. still don't know how to react. I really treasure his presence. He's an ultra special being to me - someone that definitely not anybody can replace.

The feeling is just.. indescribable when you see him in the flesh. He looks really good, really he does. That extremely Powerful aura.. He's really a superstar.

When I saw his magical dimples in reality, I was so rapt that I nearly died....

And I realised, up till today, I never really blogged about my day when I took the photo with him. Because yea... Words never do the feelings justice. And I don't want to ruin the beautiful thoughts of that astounding moment :)

God... I miss you terribly.

And god knows what I will do when I finally see him.


Things to do before he comes:

• New dress (HAHA)
• New darker hair colour
• Practice my smile
• Tattoo "i love jay" on my forehead
  

*sigh* i'm so crazily happy :)


Suddenly tongue-tied. Gonna listen to him and inform all my bebis and monchhis that their Daddy is coming~!


xoxo,

Tammy Zhou


muacks.

♥ing J @23:57

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Carelessness..

I actually left my beloved iMilo at the working place. Can't survive without music, sigh. It's my off day but by hook or by crook I HAVE to go and get it back. Borrowed Xw's iPod (she has a few jay songs in it) and it ran out of battery :/

The bus ride home was terrible. But I talked to Jeremy during MRT ride.



Love this pic~ :D



Awesomeness :3


Everyday routine is pretty much the same. After work I'll either head straight home or eat supper with siu waan. Lmao. I think I'm the only one who still has the energy to blog on a regular basis. Maybe because I listen to him at work, hence my energy is always recharged :p heh



The last time I wore a flowery dress was almost a decade ago :p I didn't wear that out, only in the store. Haha.



THIS PIC WAS TAKEN IN MAY 2009.



I thought it wasn't nice so didn't post it.. But I was looking through my ITE photos folder, and suddenly a lot of memories rushed in.. :3


Listen to Jay's 以父之名, starting from 3:45. The rap after the gun bullets part.. It's gob-smacking awesome♥ I can listen to it forever!


I know this is contradicting.. But I don't really dig my current hair colour. I wanted blue at first but got ash in the end. But it's not ash now.. It faded to blonde. Not to my liking and I'll have it dyed again soon I guess.. I want 'cold' not 'warm' colours~!


What should I do? Hmm.

♥ing J @01:53

Monday, October 05, 2009

Ok, I take back my words of regrets on choosing that company :p

Time flies during work and it was awesome sweeping the floor while listening to jay.. I wish a friend is working in the same mall though~ Lol. Give me more unreasonable customers! I welcome challenges. So far I've already met a few.. Resourcefulness, Personalized Responsiveness, Basic Respect.. I'll keep these in mind.

Huhu I miss attending CRN lessons T3T

Another colleague is pretty weird tho.. Kept jio-ing me to drink after work when I knew her for only a few hours. I'm not kidding she asked at least 5 times, and persuaded me for really long. I told her I don't drink, smoke nor club coz she said "you got smoke one hor?"

But of course I didn't go :p But she's okay to work with la.. and she asked "you like jay chou a lot ar?" too. LOL




Most recent photo taken. Lmao.

Nights all.

♥ing J @02:55

Sunday, October 04, 2009

My dear J jielun,

The magazine says you are getting fatter. Your hair is shorter and deemed uncool by some people. They always say that you look 'Gay' because of your flowery tops and your pink skinny jeans. You hit headlines when just a tiny pimple popped out on your face.

I wish I can be there and tell you,

Even if your face is 99% full of pimples.. Even if you're bald.. Even if you're obese.. Even if you are gay.. Even if you wear those half black half red skinny jeans,

It really doesn't matter. Not a tiny bit.

'Easier said than done'! I wish I can 'do' but the chance to prove it is not even there.




I find that no matter how angry I get, the anger always dissipates after a short while. I should have been more understanding, alright!!!!!!!


J ZHOU ZHOU FTW!!!!!!!!!!

♥ing J @02:51

Friday, October 02, 2009

One memorable thing that happened today:

My customer requested to take a photo of me. She said she really likes my hair :D I think she's not local since she spoke some unknown language.. Maybe she didn't see this type of hairstyle before? Lulz



***

Music is important even during work :D

Obviously I can't listen to my iPod..


So I brought my thumbdrive there, full of jay chou songs. :)

My lovely colleagues are really nice to listen to him too and they said they like jay too ;D ROFL! The store beside mine is playing jay songs everyday TOO! HAHAHHA

I love blasting his music out loud and singing to myself.

And a customer asked me today, "you really like zhou jie lun hor?"


I replied No.

Because it's Love, not Like.

LMAOs

♥ing J @01:15

Thursday, October 01, 2009

You know when someone you really care for does the opposite, the interminable anguish is unbearable - it makes you shoot the words I HATE YOU instead of the usual, when you are really feeling the latter

Jealousy kills

I hate YOU I hate YOU!

I, TAMMY LIM HENG XIANG HATES YOU TO THE CORE!


One more thing I just can't resist to post about

I hate it when people don't reply my sms. It makes me feel sucky and freaking worthless, like she/he can't even be bothered to reply ONE sms?

It's pushing me back to the dark world again

I just realised I can never be successful.

Not in a million years

♥ing J @00:54